Tuesday, April 06, 2004
what I have lost
I spent a small part of this morning re-reading my diary entries from the old Open Diary.
You won't find them there, because I let it lapse so long that my account got deleted. Thankfully, I downloaded them before they were consigned to electronic oblivion. I've lost none of them, save two or three of the very latest and the most irrelevant ones.
Before there were blogs, before everyone and their kitten began posting to the "new killer app"of the internet, the Open Diary was there. It provided much the same service in that people got to read about other people's private lives, commented and even occasionally met eye to eye. It was a place where I poured my soul out over the coals. And wrote, and wrote, and wrote.
Re reading them is like looking at a familiar face through years of fog and mist. I can almost recognize him. He still lives in me, quieter now, less sure of himself, even as I move farther and farther away from finding peace with every step into this strange new territory.
Five years. What a very long time to be lost, to have lost me.
You won't find them there, because I let it lapse so long that my account got deleted. Thankfully, I downloaded them before they were consigned to electronic oblivion. I've lost none of them, save two or three of the very latest and the most irrelevant ones.
Before there were blogs, before everyone and their kitten began posting to the "new killer app"of the internet, the Open Diary was there. It provided much the same service in that people got to read about other people's private lives, commented and even occasionally met eye to eye. It was a place where I poured my soul out over the coals. And wrote, and wrote, and wrote.
Re reading them is like looking at a familiar face through years of fog and mist. I can almost recognize him. He still lives in me, quieter now, less sure of himself, even as I move farther and farther away from finding peace with every step into this strange new territory.
Five years. What a very long time to be lost, to have lost me.
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